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[Aug. 1st, 2005|09:50 pm]
the past few days have just been a blur to me. i found out that one of my good friends that id lost touch with sometime last year, mat died.
mat was an amazing person. and this is not just one of those things you say after people die.
there was no one that didnt like mat. everyone he encountered was drawn to him, because he was so likable. he hated to see people suffering and unhappy, which is almost ironic and sad, because he suffered so much. but in my heart i truly believe that he fought with all he had, until he just couldnt do it anymore, and i believe that he made peace with it and the universe and finally stopped fighting. it dont think that its because he wanted to stop, but i think that it had just worn him down. it took its toll on him finally.
i saw mat cry twice, once when jons dog lucky died, and then right after he found out he was sick. he was an amazingly strong person.
mat had a silly side and a serious side. i loved his silly side. one nite we sat on my couch with a book of graph paper and red sharpies, drawing silly things like chickens and cat cannons with wheels, and the infamous "butt, no butt"... thing happened.
his silly side was beautiful.
and his serious side was so well educated and intellegent, but also compassionate and respectful. even if he disagreed with your point of view, he would always quietly let you make your point without interrupting, and he would only defend himself with statements he could back up. he was well spoken and modest.
but i can honestly (again, not one of those b.s things you say after someones dead) say the thing im going to miss most about him is his smile. he had the most amazing smile. when he smiled, the whole world knew it, and smiled back.
he was an amazing person, and you could not have asked for a better friend. i finally came out of my sulking today, because i finally realized how grateful i am to have had him in my life, even for such a brief moment. he will be missed, but never forgotten.
there is so much more i would like to say about mat, but i dont have the words, at least not yet.
and i would like to add this. next time you have extra cash burning a hole in your pocket and youre thinking that you should go buy those shoes, or those sunglasses, or whatever... id like you to consider making a donation to the leukemia and lymphoma society, the spca, or rainn. i for one will be donating what is left over from my next paycheck to lls in memory of mat.
here are some pics from our trip to saint louis, and his obituary.

this is my favorite, because even though its dark and hard to see, he is smiling.

Mathew Dustin Schulz
SCHULZ -- Mathew Dustin. Following a rigorous 5 year battle with Leukemia, Mathew Dustin Schulz died painlessly on Wednesday, June 29, 2005, surrounded by a loving crowd of family and friends at St. Francis Hospital. An avid student of Eastern philosophy, Mat was particularly fond of Sufism, a mystical brand of Islam. He had his favorite quote that appeared in Ancient Sufi text: "Live in society, but not of it." Anyone aware of Mat's endearing peculiarities knew his mind and appearance made him a rare soul in any crowd of millions. He is survived by: his parents, George A. and Cindy L. Schulz; his birth mother, Joanne Hoefling; his siblings, Eve and husband, Shane Burrell (and their daughter, Mary Emma), G.W., Grant and Jenny Schulz, Erin Walenta and Sherri Walker and husband, Steve (and their children, Kelci, Mollie and Blake Stansbury). Most of all, Mat is survived by his 2 beloved Pit Bulls, Babas and Nimway, 2 animals who received more care and attention than any animal could ever dream of from a compassionate human being. Service will be held 11 a.m., Saturday, July 2, at Ninde Garden Chapel, 3841 S. Peoria. In lieu of flowers the family requests that donations be made to either of the 2 following organizations: Tulsa Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals, 2910 Mohawk Blvd., Tulsa, OK 74110 or The Leukemia and Lymphoma Society, Oklahoma Chapter, 500 N. Broadway Suite 250, Oklahoma City, OK 73102. Ninde Funeral Directors, Garden Chapel, 742-5556.
Published in the Tulsa World on 7/1/2005.

[User Picture]From: hesitate
2005-08-04 02:47 am (UTC)
i saw your avatar on laundro, and being (too) curious, i clicked on your journal.
mat sounds like an incredible friend &person in general, and i'm very sorry for your loss.
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2005-08-10 12:56 pm (UTC)
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2005-08-10 10:56 pm (UTC)
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